I really wanted to avoid a post like this as I wanted to keep this blog positive, but I need to get a few things off my chest. I am SO tired of people hating Medifast, and hating my journey with Medifast. I am sick of people doubting the program, and doubting me, and I just wish they would mind their own freaking business and keep their unwanted opinions to themselves. Why so angry? Well, I'll tell you.

The day started out great! I got my Lean and Green cookbook in the mail and I made a pact with myself to cook all of the recipes in the book, cover to cover, by the time I reach goal in hopes of expanding my pallet to tastes I normally don't try. I printed out two transition and maintenance guides and bound them with the machine at work to make booklets and read through them to get a better idea of what's in store for me 50 pounds down the road. I enjoyed my chicken salad and peanut butter cups, and felt pretty good about myself and how I am treating the program this time around. That was until I got battered left and right by haters and doubters.

Before I start my rant, please note that I do believe that my two room mates want to be supportive in my Medifast journey. They both are trying to eat better and lose some weight themselves, so we are some what doing it as a household. But I constantly feel judgement from the two of them regarding the program. For example, when Andrea got home she came into my room, where I was studying my transition booklet, and proceeded to ask me what I was reading. When I told her, she went, "So it actually does teach you how to eat in the real world?" - insinuating that I would have NO idea how to do so without the transition phase. I brushed off the comment and continued to explain the phase to her and we left the conversation on a good note. Then Moise came home from work and I showed him my two booklets. He has been much more enthusiastic of my silly doings since I started the program and so I thought he'd get a kick out of them. He smiled and said they were good tools, then as I walked away he said, "It's just more than I thought." When I asked what he meant, he said, "Medifast. It's just, more than I thought." - again, insinuating that the program has holes and ultimately sets people up for failure at the end. If ALL of that wasn't enough, I turned to the Medifast forums for some positive vibes, and walked away with nothing but. A particular member, who shall remain nameless, has CONSTANTLY had a big attitude towards me, even during my first round. They would leave positive and supportive comments on everyone else's threads, but any post I made was responded to with criticism, ridicule, and condescending remarks. I finally couldn't take it anymore and blocked the person from my account.

It all boils down to this... I am fat. I need to lose weight. And I have tried EVERYTHING to help me do so. Medifast is the ONLY thing I've EVER done that has shown me results. No, it's probably not as impressive as being able to just watch portion sizes and work out, but you know what ... this next comment is strictly directed at one of my room mates ... THAT doesn't seem to be working for you! You have been trying to lose weight JUST as long as I have, and yet you haven't been able to. So how dare you judge the only thing that you and I COMBINED have found to be successful. Furthermore, how dare someone on the boards (a place that is supposed to be welcoming, friendly, and supportive) make me feel like I am such a miserable failure at the program, and that I really shouldn't even bother because I've already failed. Guess what? People mess up! They fall off the horse. But I have NEVER heard ANY coach, trainer, or otherwise tell their riders to give up. "Don't bother getting on that horse again, Jimmy. You'll probably just fall off again."

I am TIRED of all of it! I really don't even want to continue. I think I should just sleep. I guess some fights just aren't even worth the energy...